It is the second week of the Spring semester. Reality sets in as to how close Portfolio Review really is. Although it has been announced that Portfolio Review will be a little later this semester, April 14th as opposed to mid-March, it is still very close. I’m going to go out and say, This is the scariest time in my life. I’m feeling so much these days that I really don’t know what I should be feeling.
I keep having to tell myself to stay strong. And stay Focused. And not to stray too far from the path.
I chose to jump from a sinking ship, only to have to swim with sharks.
I have to stop trying to convince myself that this is what I’ve wanted all along. Because I know this is what I’ve wanted for so long. And I shouldn’t try to convince myself that this is all a ridiculous dream of a nonsensical girl who would never amount to anything.
I need to believe that my Mother was right all along. Because she was right.
I have people who believe in me. And everyday, I am grateful for that.

“Possibilities at Sea” – Paul Klee
But when it’s over and done. And the news is good. The above will be tattooed somewhere on my body. Shortly, after celebrating with my com-padres at Disneyland.
Tags: farewell, fear, insecurity, out to sea, paul klee, self-assurance, self-realization, stress